Tuesday Update

• No, I haven't had this baby yet.  She's very happy and content to be in there.  This pisses me off.  I have been cramping for the last week, and trying everything short of castor oil to induce labor....and yet, I show no signs of progressing toward labor.  I do have some dilation and effacing....so there's that....but it's been the same for the past 3 weeks.

• On the plus side, my blood pressure is back down to 108/62.  Happy.

• And on an even nicer side, I have had zero weight gain for the past 3 weeks- even though my swelling is up considerably in my legs - still the scale remains unchanged.  This is my glimmer of happiness at my Dr. visits.

• I have had a sinus headache for the past ohhhhh 34 weeks.  The only thing that relieves the pain is ibuprofen.  I cannot take it right now because it will shut the baby's kidneys down.  I really hate these headaches - and they make me a bit stabby.  One more reason to look forward to baby girl coming out.

• I posted this as my Facebook status yesterday:  "Trust me....when there's something to tell/ announce, we'll let ya know. I promise."  Which solicited snarky comments from my brother and sister-in-law.  Funny....I was the most amused by their comments.  Then my brother called last night to rub more salt in the wound - but I just ended up laughing the entire conversation...and ended it with an " I love you."  He's good for something.  :)

• I hate feeling like I'm being watched all the time.  I know that there are people waiting for baby updates.  While I'm sooo grateful for their care, love, and willingness to help, I can't help but feel like I'm holding everybody up.  I hate that.  It's making me ornery.  I know that copious amounts of pain are in my near future, and I am not a fan of pain.  It's almost like having a root canal on the calendar.  You know that whole day is going to suck...and you're going to be in a LOT of pain...but afterward there will be much celebration and no more pain.  Again....I'm not a fan of pain.  I just want to get that part over and done with.  I want to meet my daughter, and get on with living regular life!!!

• I'm struggling today.  I'm not normally an overly-emotional person, and totally accept responsibility for being crazy-whack hormonal..... If you could keep me in your prayers, I'd appreciate it.  Thanks!